Gone

So only two people rode her and the first to ride her brought her. I have been away for 10 days showing and in that time the money cleared and she shipped to the South Island before I got back. In a way it was nice to not have to do the emotional watch her load onto the transporter and drive away. Apparently the transporter loved her cruisy nature and so far they have no complaints about her. They shouldn't she is a good pony. She has gone to a lovely girl who wants to do some lower level eventing up to pre-novice and showjumping up to 1.10m. I'm so worried she will disgrace herself but she is a horse she can occasionally be naughty and I'm sure they realise it. The girl was a nice effective rider and she already loves her.

The other woman was slightly mad and said she had a clicky fetlock and that her lateral cartilages are such that in the next 2 to 10 years she will break down. To be fair she had 32 x-rays in her vet check and in a sport horse that has competed to her level and has a slightly clubby foot her joints were magnificent. I have always looked after her though and not thrashed her when she wasn't fit. 

It's not the same with her missing and I'm really questioning my goals and things now. That being said not being in a hand to mouth existence is such a relief. The financial vice was starting to really tell on me. What the future holds who knows, but it wont be boring. 

When do you sell??

I have been a very lucky girl with regards to my riding. I have been extremely lucky to have some amazing horse. I always thought I would have Connie horse forever seeing as we bred her and she is the first horse I have done all the training on. And she is a lovely horse, she is all heart and she tries her guts out for me. She isn't super scopey, She really is happiest at 1.20m and she is competitive at that height though possibly she could move up. Sometimes she struggles and sometimes she is fine over the 1.25m. It probably has more to do with how I ride.

Here is the kicker. I'm flat broke. I have debt up to me ears and she is actually pretty valuable at this point in time though soon age will start reducing her value. I love this horse with all my heart I really do and it kills me to even consider it, but I want to showjump and move up the heights and she isn't scopey enough to take me there. That and my farrier will be much happier if I pay my bill.

It feels like an absolute betrayal, though Connie wont mind as long as she is fed and it's hardly like I'm the only person whom can look after a horse. I have never sold a horse I cared about this much though. Normally I sell them because I have had a guts full of the naughty ones. Still one horse will be easier when I don't know where my future lies after March. Because she is a good sound trained horse the chances are that she will always have a good home, while the likes of Butch whom is so fragile quickly falls through the cracks. It's hard, my heart is breaking but I have no other option I feel she is my greatest asset. She will only go to the best of homes of course and it's a proper adult decision as hard as it is. I will miss her so much. Butch has some big (little) shoes to fill now!